I know I'm being hard on myself. But today was a wasted day. Not because I did something wrong, but I did nothing right from my point of view. As I'm a sinking ship and feel like a half a person. I'm simply hurting and I don't know how to fix it. I'm supposed to be able to do this if I try and work hard and do the right things. None of those things seems to matter at this point, as I have tried everything I can think of. Yet I'm still falling and unable to catch myself. No matter what change I seem to make it just doesn't seem to matter I just keep going down and not in a good way.
Sorry about the rant, now it's time to do something about it. Time to listen to some music and deal with the emotions of the day. If you keep all of those bottled in you will turn to something much worse in order to process it. For me tonight that is Listening to this song. It's ok by Nightbirde. As it seems to resonate with my now. I hope to get finished my Homeless services page done today. Continue as always to try and find a way to connect with people.