top of page

I'm now on my journey

I can't keep telling the same story if I ever want true change. The change I desire more than anything is to stand up again on my own two feet. As my emotional state just seems to attract more of the same results. I do however have one life line which brings me a great amount of joy. I also have the journey. I also have my children, my health, and a desire for happiness that goes deep.

My lifeline and I have never met. We do however share a very strong connection. As he opened up his home to me and my family. I was blown away by the offer, as I believe he was serious. Even if he wasn't, the feeling was the same. It uplifted me enough that I could sleep even if it was just for an hour. I can be thankful for that. I appreciate that. I was even tempted to go for a second and it was such a happy thought.

Maybe I might have even been strong enough to go. As the cost made sense he just wants to see me stand up again. If I did that would it really be me standing or would it be him holding me up. As everything is two sides, and the contrast between the two sides is what I feel keeps us in place. It's in the contrast where true growth spawns. As anyone can give focus to any subject.

Eventually good and bad thoughts will come on any subject. But we are far more likely to draw upon the negative than the good. As we can feel it. I knew the news would be bad when I open up my email. I felt it, I knew it was there, I tried to avoid it as long as I could. But the contrast of life got me, As this blog started out completely different. Complaining about an old life that refused to let me go. Or maybe it's me that is refusing to let it go I'm not sure.

3 views0 comments

Recent Posts

See All

Today was the first day in a little while I allowed myself to admit what I was feeling. That is this is never going to end. As I allowed myself to believe that my journey was about to end. As settleme

It's been two weeks since the start of my journey. I haven't been writing on my blog very often. As I've mostly been using paper and pen. As I've learned from experience I have to deal with the emotio

There is something magical in waking up each day to a beautiful sunset. It's the same but not the same with each viewing. As the contrast of colors and clouds and even position brings slight change. I

Post: Blog2_Post
bottom of page